From The Chains of An Eating Disorder

My favorite bedtime snack is watermelon and cubes of cheddar cheese

I eat it right before I go to bed 

It helps prevent the three a.m. munchies 

Before I even lay down my head

You see 

A bedtime snack is essential 

A sacred covenant from my body to my brain

It helps to light up a certain temple 

To which I’ve given it free reign 

And after years of food denial

My body requires certainty 

A vow of sorts that is mindful

Of the person who I want to be 

A person not controlled by a disorder

Who has found liberties from the chains of E.D. 

And though I’m still an amateur 

I’m working hard to be free 

Because I know value doesn’t equal numbers on a scale 

And the image in the mirror is beautiful as is 

I am my own fairy tale 

A beautiful black woman blessed and boundless 

Who keeps promises to my body 

Hand on the Bible under oath 

And though I may not look like Barbie 

When I’m done no one can deny my growth 

So I’ll eat watermelon and cubes of cheddar cheese 

And smile as satiety starts to set in 

And as I lay my head to go to sleep 

I’ll realize I’m comfortable in my own skin